Cancer lyrics

"cancer" depicts the most emotional point in the patient's story. Here the patient is tired and bedridden from the cancer that is surely killing him. He is starting to come to terms with the fact that he will die, and begins to make arrangements and requests for his inevitable death, ("call my aunt marie, help her gather all my things, and bury me in all my favorite colors"). As he is doing so, he realizes that there is still something he just can't quite accept, and that is having to part with the one who loves him the most, his lover ("the hardest part of this is leaving you"). He tells his lover that he will not kiss her, possibly because he wants to sever his connection with her as much as possible to make it easier for him to cope with having to leave her. Also he may be regretful of being spiteful to her like he was in "i don't love you", and may feel that he does not deserve her forgiveness, which is a point that is touched on more in "sleep". He goes on to somewhat apologize for his erratic behavior, saying he's just "soggy from the chemo". Finally he asks her that even if she were to leave him at this moment, he requests just one thing of her, that she'll never marry. ("and if you'd say goodbye today, i'd ask you to be true"). "cancer" shows that the patient still has the potential to go to heaven, and that he isn't all bad. This foreshadows his eventual change of attitude in "famous last words".

Yes a sad song really.. So hard to leave them, having a couple of days remaining in your life.. Having cancer... And trying to bury in his favorite memories.. ^^