Bedroom Eyes – After I Was A Kid But Before I Grew Up lyrics

In a puzzling way I could hear myself say
"I don't need to be taken home"
But I'm leaning on lies to hopefully hide
That I can barely stand on my own

It's a way to level out
The scales of hopes and doubts
(After I fell in love but before I broke down)

Closing one eye to see
What I type on the screen
Probably I will regret this plea
Oh, these streets aren't mine
And I'm touching the lines
Forgetting my OCD

I'm not anxious or even bored
I'm not nervous or insecure
(After I had a few but before I had more)

My head's a bee hive and I leave it behind
At any given chance that I can find
And the pile of misdeeds
That I'm kicking like leaves
This wishful drinking aligns

My blood is so thin you can see through my skin
And read every thought within
I'm a wide open book and the pages you took;
Keep them but let no-one look

I love everyone tonight
I can even stand my own sight
(After they threw me out but before I threw up)

I'm not thinking of you
I'm not thinking of you
I'm not thinking of you tonight
I'm not thinking of you
I'm not thinking of you
I'm not thinking of you tonight
I'm not thinking of you
I'm not thinking of you
I'm not thinking of you tonight
Ah, who I'm I kidding?
Your smile is still a despot inside my head

I love everyone tonight
I hope they never turn on the lights
(After I was a kid but before I grew up)