Lagrimas Negras lyrics

And even though
You threw me in abandonment
And even though
You killed all my illusions.
Instead of cursing you like i should
In my dreams i fill you
In my dreams i fill you with blessings

I suffer the inmense pain of your loss,
I feel the deep pain of your departure.
And i cry without you knowing that my weeping
Has black tears,
Has black tears like my life.

That you want to leave me
That i don't want to suffer
With you i leave, my saint, even if i have to die.

-chologringo

Basically the song is about a man who has lost his loved one. And since he cannot live without her, he wants to join her even if it will cost him his life...

Could someone translate these lyrics please? Thanks =)