Thoughts Of Suicide lyrics

Hey man you alright
Nope
I seen how your ol girl comin down on u
Yea
What happened? Ur pops find out u lost that job and shit
Mmm hmm
Well don't worry homie, parents be like that sometimes. it's like they mad at you cuz they gettin old. jus don't go all crazy talkin bout u gonna kill urself again aight

Yes in my mind I wanna do it
But when I pursue it
I can't seem tog o through it
So I'ma write a song just so you can feel
When I'm in the mood to kill myself
I can't control it
These thoughts of suicide
I'm always feelin it
And I kno I'm not alone when it comes to this
Cuz everyday it's like the whole worlds pissed
So fucc ya attitude
And keep ur bad mood
Cuz I got one too
And I don't give a shit
Who you rollin wit
Bring ur whole damn crew
Well call it suicide
When u messin wit a killa someones bound to die
And it wont be me
Cuz only one claimin my life is G-O-D

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You eva thought of suicide
You eva thought of suicide
You eva thought of suicide
Glad u didn't do it
If you did you wouldn't be here now
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Are you easily influenced
Does ur parents always say that ur friends is the reason ur awlays ruined
Do you have hate for ur boss
Where u wanna catch him alone an dpop one off
Fucc work
Or is it mental health
Where the only problem u have is wit yo self
Can someone please explain
Why it feels so good to cause so much pain
With all these thoughts we have
Yup it's easy to say to just realx
But when u that fed up
Only thing in ur mind is how deep to cut
Bcuz u hate ur life and u really don't care
And things would be better if you just werent here
So now u ready to go end it all
Instead of thinkin of the ones you wont see tomorrow

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It's nothing nice
I got them thoughts steadily runnin through my head
I close my eyes and try to picture if I'm better off dead
The one and only as I sit here by my lonely
Seperated from the world cuz the world is so phony
Hear my cries let me ride and when u do it tell no lies
Where the skies I can see it in ur mutha fuccin eyes
It's suicide
If you wanna get inside
U can try if u wanna get inside
It's ya boy shotgun and I'm reday to die

Do people that commit suicide go to heaven
I'm sure everyone has their own theories
But I'm a firm believer that if you take your own life
Your soul is trapped

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