The Fantasy lyrics

I think the song also talks about his life. He describes the way he acts when he calls himself a "machine" and "no longer living" (meaning he lives lifelessly, just an empty shell). I also believe that when he repeats "automatic, I imagine, I believe", he explains that he doesn't give much thought to what he does; it simply happens (It is frequent for those suffering from depression to act like "zombies" or "robots". Therefore, they do not think of what to do next, they simply follow their instinct, what they know, and act "automatic"ally). In pain ("it never gets painless"), he dreams of something in particular; perhaps a place of escape. In order to accomplish that dream, or fantasy, he is willing to do whatever in order to get it.