Hard Surprise lyrics

I'm killing myself slowly
Way too fucking slow
You never see my weakness
I never let it show
Buried so deep inside me
I can't remember where
On my way straight to hell
And i'll wait for you there
Where can i find the answers
I've looked everywhere
Drugs, religion, sin and penance
I've tried them all they're not the cure
I've been beaten down by life
But i'me still fighting abck
I want to die with dignity
Keep your tears i'm on track
Destined to go nowhere
Determined to get there first
Where can i find the answers
I've looked everywhere
Drugs, religion, sin and penace
I've tried them all they're not the cure
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