I get the meaning of her song exactly. Its a mirror image of how I've been living my life with a special someone for the last 5 years but have been so scared to be in a relationship, though I love him dearly deep down but won't let him know for fear of how things will turn out. I met him 5 years ago when I was destructive to myself and all he wanted to do was help me but I wasn't ready to stop. In that I broke his heart, but he was the only one who could see all my bullshit. I moved away, and regretted it ever since. I want to run into his arms again now but can't. Now were both so far away, talk constantly of how life would of been better. And how he was and still is what can keep me grounded from destruction. When we do see each other I can't wait to run back home to him. =/