Honestly... This song has a hidden beauty to it. It sounds horrible and suicidal (it is) BUT, if you listen it explains the troubles and pain some of us go through (and I'm a prime example) no one understands how you feel, so you just want to end it all. And the using of the knife.... If you say you just do it to take the edge off your telling lies. Your an attention whore. You do it cause that's how your gonna end it, most people realize it's a stupid decision and stop. Anyway! The actions you take also effect others even if you don't know it, "mama feels guilt, yea mama feels pain" because daddy didn't stay, mama blames herself for the pain and confusion you went through, and how it may end. Every action taken in this world will effect someone, don't make it a bad effect. Find another way. Someone loves you. I'll be your friend if you need it.