I think it talks about: he is so depressed with his life nothing is different it's all the same "pitiful", and he doesn't see any reason to keep living, is just every day the same f*****g routine. And he can't stand that, so he says to someone give them a reason something for him, because if there is a reason for him doesn't end with his life he didn't found them yet. And he need, because with that life that he is taking his dying.