Breaking The Habit lyrics

Like where do i begin, this is one of the most meaningful songs you will ever here. This is the only song that's actually made an impact in my life and the way i live it so know i really appreciate linkin park & most importantly this song:

Ok well first of all it's about trying to move on from something that you may have done in your past or doing in the present, but you can't because the memories keep coming back and they're filling up all your thoughts. You don't feel like you can trust anyone and tell them how you're feeling or you don't feel like anybody will actually understand. So, you keep it all locked inside putting on a "brave" face while you continuously hurt inside.

"i don't want to the one the battles always choose"
this might be the most powerful line in the song. At this point you're feeling like why does all this bullshit keep happening to me, do i really deserve this. This is where things go wrong because now you're feeling like if bad things are always going to happen to me i may as well try to ease the pain. You turn to some form of release whether it's self harming, drugs, alcohol or whatever it's usually not very good for you. You start to feel lost and sort of misplaced but somewhere between all that madness you finally realize "no, this is not right. This is not how i should be living my life" you finally come face to face with yourself and say i'm going to stop this, break the habit and start again. You don't know how you're going to do it or where to even start, but you feel like when you've hit rock bottom you can only go up.

Yeah it was long i know, & i apologize (:

This was the first linkin park song i hear
it's amazing