Cold Desert lyrics

To me its about a person who is in love with someone who is with someone else. But they sneak around with each other. Thats why he is waiting on a cornor waiting for a light to come on because thats when he will know she is alone and they can be together. But he feels guilty and he knows that they shouldnt be together and maybe he feels like she doesnt really love him like he loves her. Thats why he says its cold in the desert and the whole water doesnt ever see the ground part. Because he feels like something is missing. But he wants to believe that she loves him and that its right for them to be together thats why he says "special unspoken with out sound... you told me you loved me and that i'd never die alone." TO me thats his way of saying that her actions made him believe she loved him but that she had never actually said the words. Then the rest of the song is about his guilt when he realized she didnt care for him as strongly or at all. Everyone noticed and had seen the signs and he was always known to cross lines. They thought no one knew but he realized suddenly that the signs were obvious. and people thought it was in his character to do something Like being with someone who belonged to another. At the end of the song he is just so depresed he doesnt cry because he feels so down he is numb, he feels that even Jesus who died for everyone could not love him because of what he has done. The load of all the shame from what he has become makes him feel much older than he actually is. ANd he cant forgive himself. He doesnt know if he should blame her or himself for the way he feels and no one really knows how much pain he is in but himself. Thats what it means to me any way. Its a haunting song I LOVE IT

*I mean first lyric missing not wrong ... ... .

I'm on a corner... first lyric wrong
also: water never seems tobe around
special unspoken without sound
noone ever carried my load

the lyrics are wrong the typos yes but in the intro to the song its ..."im on a corner"

Cold desert is about a you reaching the end of the line. Hopeless and helpless, you forget what all you have to be thankful for.
This person has stuck by you through things worse than you could even fathom, when others walked away. I mean they have stuck with you through hell, and loved you unconditionally. So you can take the "hand over your heart" like what you said as a child. As in promise, hand over your heart. Or in a more intense a way like " hand over your heart." Then the feeling of the song warms up for a minute, when you are wanting to go to go home, your safe place, with this person you know loves you. You are also incredibly deep emotions and connections with this person, because they have always had faith in you when others haven not. They "get" you. Maybe you do cross the lines, but it probably has a lot to do with those people expecting the worse in you.
But this person understands that sometimes you might be a little off, and not do the right things. Or maybe you did the wrong thing in the past. But they don't care, whereas the others can't forgive & forget.
The last verse you are feeling really confused again. You know God is the only person to turn to in times of trouble, but sometimes that is so obvious, you just don't see it. You head is not always in the right place, so you make a dumb statement in your head, that you know is not true. But sometimes we all go to that dark side because we are human. We make mistakes. We say things and do things that we know are not true, but that is how we learn.
But that is what this song does to us do. Learn that God has put that person who loves us unconditionally in our life, and to be grateful to Him, and remember that he knows we say DUMB stuff, but when we are down facing demons, we say ridiculous things, but he is always there to forgives us of our sins.