The Way I Should lyrics

A cold wind against my shoulder woke me up in the middle of the night
An Autumn leaf was scraping against my window
Like it was trying hard to get inside
And then a ghost that I had met before he kept me up 'til dawn
And everything I thought was right was suddenly all wrong
He said, "Your score is looking pretty bad"
And then he asked me what it was that I had to show

So I went running down a list of things
Some were real, but on some of them I lied
'cause I felt I had to justify each breath that I'd been breathing in this life
Then I realized I was playing into someone else's rules,
Trying to keep my score up in a game I did not choose
Then I looked that ghost straight in the eye
And said "You'd better not be coming back by again"
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/i/iris_dement/the_way_i_should.html ]
And it's true that I don't work near as hard
As you tell me that I'm supposed to
I don't run as fast as I could
But I live just the way I want to
And that's the way I should

October's leaves were dancing 'round
Like angels dressed in robes of Red and Gold
But November's come and gone now
And they're lying in the gutter out along the road
They're gonna make their way out to the ditch or someday to the sea,
They'll get to where they're going without the help of you or me
And if each life is just a grain of sand
I'm telling you man, this grain of sand is mine

And it's true that I don't work near as hard
As you tell me that I'm supposed to
I don't run as fast as I could
But I live just the way I want to
And that's the way I should
But I live just the way I want to
And that's the way I should