What If I lyrics

I've heard it all before could hear it all a thousand times more playing with me all the time no one feels the same and sanity is all a game locked up deep inside your mind hey die - you want an alibi hey quit - you want to get a fix hey try - you'll never make it tonight you can feel it deep inside all of the illusions for myself what if i try to make amends for someone else what if i try to change the way i'm feeling deep inside what if i died filled with sorrow wanting another try no one can face the truth was there nothing more that you could do what would you do different next time keep turning from the past the future's coming much to fast or is it all in my mind