Even If It Kills Me lyrics

I致e got a lotta things to do tonight
I知 so sick of making lists
Of things I値l never finish
I致e lived here for the last 12 years
Since early 1995 all my shit has been in boxes
But if I had a little more time to kill
I壇 settle every little stupid thing
Yeah you壇 think that I would

But I知 too tired to go to sleep tonight
And I知 too weak to follow dreams tonight
For the first time in a long time I can say
That I want to try to get better and
Overcome each moment
In my own way

I wonder if I値l ever lose my mind
I tried hard for awhile
But then I kind of gave up
Winter is killer when the sun goes down
I知 really not as stubborn as I seem
Said the knuckle to the concrete

But I知 too tired to go to sleep tonight
And I知 too weak to follow dreams tonight
For the first time in a long time I can say
That I want to try to get better and
Overcome each moment
In my own way

I知 not saying that I知 giving up
I知 just trying not to think
As much as I used to
Cause never is a lonely little messed up word
Maybe I値l get it right some day
For the first time in a long time I can say
That I want to try
I feel helpless for the most part
But I知 learning to open my eyes
And the sad truth of the matter is
I値l never get over it
But I知 gonna try
To get better and overcome each moment
In my own way

I sure want to get back on track
And I値l do whatever it takes
Even if it kills me