Torn lyrics

I'm walking through fields of the fallen alone in silence
I'm praising their courage, I envy their loss
My steps leaves marks of another forsaken soul
My choices might haunt me forever until I'm gone

With so much lost in anger, too much built up fear
And all these thoughts colliding making my wounds seem fatal
Pushing my head under water making me tired and torn
If only things were different, only things were different

My soul and my inside's been colored and there is no silence
Not distant from courage I'm wearing the loss
My eyes sees the dawn of another horizon
My battle, it rages forever
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With so much lost in anger, too much built up fear
And all these thoughts colliding making my wounds seem fatal
Pushing my head under water making me tired and torn
If only things were different, if only things were

Brought to me in a different shade
Shown to me so that I could relate
Lock all doors that would make me stray
And offer me a brand new day

Never claimed to be someone I'm not
And always feared to be forgotten
So led astray that I lost all worth
So torn by wounds in a world of hurt

With so much lost in anger, too much built up fear
And all these thoughts colliding making my wounds seem fatal
Pushing my head under water making me tired and torn
If only things were different, if only things were
If only things were different, if only things were