Muchi (Bug) (English Version) lyrics

I can't open myself up to anyone, I can't trust any of them
I can't see anything, the light that shines is disappearing, even now, I'm wilting...
What I can't reveal, is my weakneess, my own past
I can't get what I want, but... No doubt, the kindness I'm holding onto, will go away
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My heart is chuttered, even now falling apart
Stifling my own tears... I laugh every day
My heart showed me, there was no reason to belive
Those hypocrites was who killed me

I can't get what I want, but... No doubt, the kindness I'm holding onto
The typical answer is when you die... you'll be reborn and come back and try again

My heart is chuttered, even now it's crumbling apart
Stifling my own tears... I scream every day
My heart left me the strength, to belive there's a reason
It was my very own heart that killed me