Pretty Angry (For J. Sheehan) lyrics

I wish I drank tequila
I wish I stayed up late
But lately when the Sandman comes, you know I just can't wait
No, lately I can't wait
And we packed up all your boxes, it's all been hauled away
I never stare at walls so bare 'cause something always stays
Yeah something ever stays

And I wanna shout from my guitar, "Come out, come out, wherever you are"
The joke is over, open your eyes
A heart like yours, it never dies
And I found your keys behind your chair
I still can see you sitting there
This isn't funny; don't fool around
You let me go...
You let me down

And I guess I'm still pretty angry and I don't want to be
I don't know which was the bigger waste of time, missing you or wishing, instead it was me

I wish I walked on water
Pulling rabbits from my sleeve
Guessing cards and saving everyone
I wish I still believed
Oh I wish that I believed
That I could also channel voices
That I've endured the burning blade
That I could make some of your choices
I wish I weren't afraid of those choices that you've made
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Like I could give you what you need (Run all your races)
So ollie, ollie oxen free
The game is up and I give in (And be what you're gonna be)
So show yourself so that you can win
Come claim your prize and I don't care (And let some of us love you)
I still can see you standing there
How could you leave, how could you lie? (And set thy anger free)
You cut me off in mid-reply

And I guess I'm still pretty angry and I don't want to be
I don't know which was the bigger waste of time, missing you or wishing, instead, it was me

(Run all your races) The will to win, the urge to race, I still can see it on your face
(And be what you're gonna be) Thought I'd keep up but only crashed, I wasn't built to move that fast
(And let some of us love you) Thought I could match you stride for stride but I was on the other side
(And set thy anger free) And holding onto the safety rail with knuckles white, complexion pale
(Control my contradictions) A cloud of dust and you were gone
(In the beginning there was you and me) Thought I would catch you later on
(And allow that my labours thrive) I limped behind, your race was won
(I would have brushed my world aside) But were you racing or on the run? (Rather than say goodbye)
(And grant me please the answer) How you enjoyed, you loved to drive
(I would have brushed my world aside) And I'm destroyed... (I don't know why I'm still...) 'cause I'm alive, 'cause I'm alive
And I guess I'm still pretty angry and I don't want to be
I don't know which was the bigger waste of time, missing you or wishing, instead, it was me
And I guess I'm still pretty angry and I don't want to be
I don't know which was the bigger waste of time, missing you