I finally esacaped an alcaholic's home with nicknamed men trapsing through, a mother's reputation to overcome, brainwashed guilt doormat who paid for her binging, no apologies the next day, freedom came at 19yrs, when the light bulb exploded and the window of opportunity came I grabbed, with flatmates who inspired belief to leave my prison and town for 20yrs, I proved to my inner haunted child that the chains that once held me could be with time, unlinked. 20yrs returning to whanau (family) I returned with my twin inspirations only to find the cycle had spread from mother to siblings. The brain washing continued. The drive to esacap happened again, but now I no longer run from alcaholic drama's, instead I stand in my own light and dreams of a better future via practising what I preach only to my self without justification to other's or judgement on others. My children are my future, they see the cycle of their whanau (familys) actions and consequensenes and we are no longer held by the brainwashing of addictive behaviors and secrets. We are stronger for the lyric's of Tracy Chapman's honesty when other's choose not to empower, inspire, strengthen and reaffirm natural laws that parts of humanity have lost their way in the journey of life. She reminds us all of our purpose within the circle of life!