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Well I've only come across the Ed Sheeran cover of this amazing song. This is one of those pivotal moments in my life personally, where you're going through some thing that you feel like you'll never get through. Then suddenly a song or something comes along and makes you finally feel like there's Hope and that this too shall pass. I've recently lost my way, and haven't recognized myself in the mirror for a while. I've been tormenting myself for not living up to expectations and not being in the place where I was "supposed" to be. I've been coping with feelings of self doubt and self worth, and feeling of disappointment that I feel I am to everyone in my life. And I've been in this self sabotage vicious cycle/ people pleasing roller coaster. All it's done is get me to this place where I no longer want to feel any of that. And what do you know? Drugs are the most effective way of not feeling a damn thing. Surprise surprise! So that's where I've been for a while now, and I recently got clean. But I also realized I've been dealing with depression type issues for a long long time, and I know that's a major part of this. So when I heard this song, it was like a switch went off and my thinking changed. "it's okay not to be okay" when I heard that I was like "it IS okay not to be okay" I've been beating myself up for nothing. Why am I doing this to myself?" "Losing my mind on a tiny error, I nearly left the real me on the shelf. No, no, no, no, no..." This part is so true I lost the real me, and I finally got her back! "Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars! Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing, It's okay not to be okay... Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart. Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising, Just be true to who you are!" This part too, dreaming isn't the easiest for a person like me.but it is crucial that I continue to follow my dreams regardless of how long it takes or if they don't come true in the end. It's hard following what you love, ie your heart. And I feel everything all the time. And take others pain on as my own. So crying is apart of who I am, and I'm no longer ashamed of that. Everyone has their own battle so to speak, that they are fighting everyday. And 99% of us wouldn't even have a clue, or consider that when judgments are made in response to that. So think about that the next time you feel you need to judge a particular persons situation. BE TRUE TO WHO YOU ARE! No matter what that is. If it makes you happy, brings you peace, and does no harm. Then I beg of you not to loose yourself like I almost did.
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