"I wrote it about my friend, Spencer, who was (/is?) battling addiction. One of the lyrics is 'the fear of falling apart,' which I think was the greatest thing I felt at the time. I was really just on edge and anxious about where the future of the band was going, the future of our friendship in general, the future with him and his health, I was just scared, like really scared of what was gonna happen. But I was also very angry, I think, when I wrote that song. Just mad, like, why - mad at myself, mad at him, like, why can't I do something to fix this, what is wrong with me, what is wrong with you, what - you know, just questioning a lot of things. It was such a strong emotion that I tried to capture it as best I could and I felt like I was pretty honest. And when I showed everybody, they seemed to like it in a supportive way, which definitely was validating. I think that's why I made the record." https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G4HxcXrbod8