And I am feeling so small
It was over my head
Your feeling like you aren't good enough, or you never were, and feel like giving up, and think the whole situations, your love and compassion was never real. Your making yourself believe it was never meant to be in the first place. You are feeling helpless, and tired of waiting and tiny like no one can see you and your trying to get their attention. You want this bad but you think you can't.