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Hot summer nights mid July
The mention of 'Hot summer nights mid July' represents the feeling of numbness and reckless behavior. The summer experience is one of which is not a part of ones reality, it is a state of unconsciousness which people wish to last so that they don't have to experience anything which is real. The writer is trying to state that any feeling of which she had at this particular time were of a pulchritudinous display for her, but she knows that feeling is not real, she knows that the beauty must end with the ugly truth. The word 'Hot' is in different contexts, the heat temperature and the feeling she has as the experiences she had during this summer made her feel lost, so lost that she didn't want to turn back. The line reads that she knows the feeling is only temporary, she is aware that this experience cannot be brought into her world of reality, due to the fact that the summer feelings are too distracting to provide her with the knowledge that the unrealistic never lasts.