For Good Measure
Was it because I was born this way or shaped this way?
Was it the poison I consumed or the lies I fed into?
Because you seemed to have forgotten that I still breathe.
And with every breath, I choke on unclean air.
There isn't a place inside my heart for you.
I widened the space between us a long time ago.
I gave you all you didn't want from me.
And I guess it wasn't so easy.
I tried to save you from yourself, but it didn't even matter.
I want to see what you see in me.
We're constantly burning from the inside out.
And that's not to say that it's you that put us out.
And how could I forget the flame you lit was always there?
Weighed down with imperfection,
I professed this fault line home.
This was the past I grew from.
But sadly, history repeats.
I won't climb, climb all the mountains to come.
But with force from you, I will drive them away.
I am stronger than what I constructed.
How could you let this happen to me?
I'm filled with guilt and shame.
A loss of everything.
As if life wasn't hard enough.
I've tried denying that something like this could happen
I never wanted to open the floodgates.
But for the sake of being human here it goes.
Being treated worse than an animal is only a small part of the pain I've had to endure.
My child, it's not your fault you've fallen victim to his selfish disease.
Don't wait all your life with an absence of feeling complete.
My world was turned upside down with the diagnosis.
I saw the change in your decaying state.
You never deserved this! Bad things should only come to the wicked.
And yet the most powerful of killers came to our doorstep and charged in.
It charged right in.
The sirens that stole you away from me
Gave way for the silence in our home.
This wasn't the way I planned it to be.
All signs point to me dying alone.
I feel deceived! How could you take them all away from me?
I can't begin to describe the feeling of causing your life to run out.
But I'll try my best to forget.
But every time I've tried to fix what I wronged, I know I put myself in hell.
This is where I belong.
I can't shake the thought of your blood.
It haunts my thoughts to no end.
I tied the rope around your neck like a noose made of apathy.
What's the use in finding tomorrow if you don't get a second chance?
I find comfort in blaming myself for this.
I feel you closer now.
We can all talk about rapture.
But who truly understands it?
Let us take this as a warning.
Never take the mark of the beast.
Faithless following suit.(Reverse)
Circling around and around. (Return)
Will we gain any ground?(Reverse)
The time to divide what is truth is now.
So what is blasphemy?
I walked a thousand miles in your shoes.
The Hero I Had
You built this family like an empire and tore it down with your own hands.
Now you've got nothing to claim as your own.
Oh no, you've gone and left them alone and it seems your crown is gone.
You've lost your touch.
These are the words that you need to hear.
Ten years have passed.
Where is the change?
And all the damage you caused, it weighs on me.
And I feel crushed.
I will bring you meaning for the rest of my life.
If we waited out our whole lives would you see us in a new light?
If I were a beggar, a drunk, a con, a thief would you still see right through me?
If all we are is hands and feet, then why do we fight with both of these?
Keep your head high starry eyes.
It will all pass over night.
If you are a God of hope, life and majesty will you bring us to our knees?
But it's taking me too long to cover up the messes I've made and I can't seem to figure it out.
Why do I keep pushing you away?
If I could just open my eyes I would see that you are God of everything.
And everything seems to crumble in my hands.
I created a piece of me in which I will love but let go.
These are the thoughts that painted your picture.
These are the hands that constructed your body and soul.
This is the breath that filled your lungs with life.
This is the power that created every piece to perfection.
Enter my arms so I can embrace you.
Now don't forget who did this for you, never forget the love.
These are the eyes from which you will see me.
These are the ears from which you will hear me.
This is the mind from which you will trust me.