I only wanted, only wanted just to touch you
I couldn't bear it, couldn't bear it if you leave
It doesn't matter, doesn't matter if I scare you
I only wanted, only wanted someone else's skin
To feel you there
To Touch my face
To Keep me whole
Help me see------ my high life
Give me your life...YEAH
Somewhere between my tongue and cheek
I can feel the hands on me
Pulls me in so we are face to face
I don't wanna see itŠi don't wanna see
Hold my head up, can't avert my eyes
Spots and rats on me, I don't wanna see
Claw the ground up, get me out of this
Never wanted this - never needed this!
Wish I was too dead to cry
My self-affliction fades
Stones to throw at my creator
Masochists to which I cater
You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds
Remember all the times you bent our truth and crossed our lines?
All things considered, it was just our normal way of life
But somewhere in the middle, we got caught and dragged away
So my tribunal brings us here so I can fall today
All - you want is soulless
All - you got to break us
All - I have to do is
I can only hurt your case
It's written on your face
You always come to me
I won't be used, but
I - can't fight you anymore
I know I'll open up the door, oh
No! I won't! I can't! not anymore!
One more time and I think I'll fucking die!
Seed, gotta let it grow, why ya gotta watch when I let it feed?
Better look into the mirror for the face you hide away, everyday
But I don't give a fuck; I let it roll - I smoke the old
Gotta run, gotta rend, gotta maim, gotta make it through another maze
Please... wring the blood from my hands
Don't pretend that you understand me
I don't even want you looking at me
Motherfucker, GET INSIDE!
Stuck to the dog, pissin' out both ends
I got a hundred lethal weapons that I call my friends
Ain't a person on earth who could take my life
I wish they would so a man could get some sleep at night
But my design is a mixture of descent and decay
I see a monster in the mirror fucking everyday
Can a man ever wash his hands of blood?
Perpetual deja vu, isn't that enough?
Peel back the layers and see what I've become
Come one and all and see the broken man, talking to himself
He sits and waits for something better, he'll never find it here
The people touch his hair and pinch his cheek; he can't even feel it
There it goes again, he's listening to someone
He hears the bitter laughter
And all he wants to know is
Why------ does any of it matter? (I can't take it anymore)
You've gotta try------ the inhale that makes the exhale so much better
Is this wrong of me? I've come so far, so fast
I'm in the dark about a lot of things
Seems so real - to me!
I wish that I could hate it
I saw my bloody hands come cleanŠ before my eyes!
And I hear my wants and needs again, can you help me?
And I hear a different kind again, someone stop me
And I feel the strain inside my mind, am I crazy?
[All Spoken, Except When Noted Otherwise]
What a skeletal wreck of a man this is
Translucent flesh and feeble bones
The kind of temple where the whores and villians
Try to tempt the holistic tones
Running rampant with free thought to free form and the free and clear
And the matters at hand are shelled out like lint at a laundrymat to sift and focus on the bigger, better, NOW
We all have a little sin that needs venting, virtues for the rending and laws and systems and stems ripped from the branches of office do you know what your post entails?
Do you serve a purpose or purposely serve?
Wind down inside your atavistic allure, the value of a summer spent and a winter earned
You hold me inside your iris
Like a terminal stain on life
You condescend to my primal brain
And twist me around like a knife
Can't begin to explain
The feelings I have restrained
Don't ask me how I am
Because you're too busy planning your epitaph
Let me tell you
Take A Number
Never even knew
What you meant to convey
You handed us a retrospect
'til you didn't have a thing to say
No one questions you
Even someone set out to do
Now it's nothing
But dead and gone
Let's go [x4]
Haven't let you in cause I'm in you
Haven't let you in cause I'm in you
Must have been a bitch,
Must have been a pain
Take me off the innocent
Put me in your vein!