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December 25th, 1986 - Van Nuys.

Merry Christmas.

That's what people say at Christmas, right?
Except normally they have someone to say it to.
They have friends and family,
And they haven't been crouched naked under a Christmas tree
with a needle in their arm like an insane person in a mansion in Van Nuys.
They're not out of their minds, they're not writing in a diary,
And they're definitely not watching their holiday spirit coagulate in a spoon.
I didn't speak to a single person today.
I figured why should I ruin their fucking Christmas.

I've started a new diary and this time I have a few new reasons.
One, I have no friends left.
Two, so I can read back and remember what I did the day before.
And three, so if I die, at least I leave a nice little suicide note of my life.

It's just me and you, diary. Welcome to my fucked up life.

Nobody would believe the shit that happens in my head, it's haunted.
Now that I've come down from the drugs
it seems like a sick play that I saw in a theater somewhere.
Thirty minutes ago, I could've killed someone.
Or better yet, myself.



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    grandtheftcondomMay 10, 2008 at 7:43 pm
    Wow. Talk about a reason to never shoot up, eh? This is great. The lyrics, rock. The music, is sick (in a good way) sixx:am is AWESOME
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    grandtheftcondomMay 10, 2008 at 7:43 pm
    Wow. Talk about a reason to never shoot up, eh? This is great. The lyrics, rock. The music, is sick (in a good way) sixx:am is AWESOME
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    UnregisteredDec 23, 2011 at 7:07 pm
    Very inspirational.. There is so much positive that comes out of somebody telling it like it is... Thank you nikki. I am a drug and alcohol counselor and i use the heroin diaries as a real life example and it has helped to change lives...
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    UnregisteredDec 23, 2011 at 7:02 pm
    To me x-mas in hell means being to selfish and and to stuck on myself and my addiction to even realize that i was not only killing myself but severely hurting those that realy do care... At one time i was that guy under the tree... Now my life does have meaning... God bless everybody...
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    tommyleelover1Aug 4, 2011 at 10:22 pm
    I love this song! The lyrics rock! Nikki Sixx is my man so every1 out there better back off of him!

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