Dear Joan lyrics

Dear Joan, I've almost forgotten the pane in the window
The blue dress in the doorway
Dear Joan, help me remember the face I forget
And the traps that I've sprung

I guess I've grown tired, it's just what's expected of me
To tear your heart from the inside to the outside
You know I was wired, I just couldn't help it
The hundred thousand times I hurt you

Dear Joan, I wanted to say
I'm sorry for the screaming last night and the nights before
Well, I've wanted more from this
Than anything I've even known, dear Joan

Dear Joan, your face has a brightness
That I've never seen in the years that I've known you
Dear Joan, I'd pick up the pieces but some scattered too far
You see they flew when I kicked them, cross the floor

And I know you believe when I said it was over
You stood by me patiently waiting and broken
So deeply in love with every face that I've shown

And Dear Joan I wanted to say
I'm sorry for the screaming last night and the nights before
Well I've wanted more from this
Than anything I've ever known

Once I forget, twice I'm a fool, three times
I wrap my hands around your neck while you're sleepin'
Dear Joan, don't walk out the doorway
Because if you did, I could honestly kill you

Dear Joan, I wanted to say
I'm sorry for the screaming last night and the nights before
Well I've wanted more from this
Than anything I've ever known

Dear Joan, I wanted to say
I'm sorry for the screaming last night and the nights before
Well I've wanted more from this
Than anything I've ever known, dear Joan