Quarter on the loose
Few questions I ask myself
Maybe it started with Slaughterhouse, or was it tour life?
Maybe it wouldnít had started at all if I had your life
Maybe it was needed or I was thinking immorally
If I wasnít myself could I say I gave the fans All of Me?
Canít decide if Iím more ashamed of what this all mean
Than I am of ignoring all the lessons that was taught to me
Headed up field but couldnít dodge the last tackler
High to the floor we thinkin moves her ass backwards
How could I do with no regrets at all, willing to bet it all
Not realize that quicker demise, how could I neglect it all?
Iím so seasonal, some of you knew what to bring back
With a heart this cold, howíd yaíll think Iíd be receptive to fall
Iím plenty comfortable when dangerís around
And even more so when strangers around
In a bigger picture, was sicker down on my triggers
And all the alarm enforcers
Down to a nigga, that Iím about for drugs and liquor or the harm it causes
Life and death, I tried to lynch myself
Thought I could keep it all a secret, I convinced myself
But really the folk that loved me, they could tell I was loakin
I couldnít see him, cry me a river cuz it fell in the ocean
Numb to my words now, maybe felt it was open
I cut so many people who was through, I need help with devotion
Thatís just some of the things I ask my Lord the savior
And when He calls to me, well He have done us all a favor
How did I make it here?
Who I are?
I feel so lost
Now Iím not seeing it clear
Is it my fault?
Is it my fault?
Itís all in my head
Iím looking around like this canít be happening
Round of applause for the angry rappers
Lord my girl cried me a flood then me a river
Thatís love depending on me when Iím a dependent on liquor
Iím up in the shoe store, she got no love to show
You ever look at a bitch she was fucking behind your bitch back like fuck I was fuckin you for, come on
Iím an artist so Iím intelligent
I would tell you to do some soul searchin
But itís hangin up in my closet with your skeleton
Thatís gotta be a god's work, even a diamond gotta be polished first
The quarter is on the loose and I ainít been out here getting my dollarsí worth
I had to remove the goggles first
To see through the sippin patrone and 50 phonies fool
I need to go get me a kidney doner
Guru, Nate Dogg, go head blink your eye
Your doctor told me you close, go ahead drink and die
Buried under the stone where the patrone 5th sits by
That reads hella somebody who never wanted to be this guy
They say knowledge is power, great cuz every day I learn
As of late been having revelations bout this hate turn
Hate the way they judge me, 2 I got the case adjourned
Hated the belly of the beast to I became it's tapeworm
When I said Iíd stop getting high tried to say itís done
No, Iím the type to walk through the fire to check the way it burn
They say my brain is off, I say how can it be?
If Iím out my mind how can I be in sanity?
The people used to say that I was scared of progress
They donít know how hard a nigga tried to advance
But I donít know whoís more to blame
Is it them for really not knowing me
Or is it me for never really giving them a chance?
Get too close, be too big of a threat
Now itís been little than no time
Thinking why I ainít get rid of you yet
Gotta recognize my maturity
Gotta see Iím grown
Letting my skeletons out the closet just so I never be alone
Since I got trust issues I wonít discuss with you
Besides God tell me who the fuckís supposed to save you
Pop one, have one man to man, whatís going after the lightís out?
Somewhere in his head probly feel it in his place too
Plus more people will see me soon
I mean Iíll be on national TV soon
So when I ask if people I have around are cancer for me
Thatís 4 million more that might be able to answer for me