Suffering...boredom...apathy...and utter lack. So often, we, as Christians try to get around these things in this life, not press through them. Jesus showed us how its done. He took no shortcuts. On the eve of His death, Jesus faced His accusers with no defense, except to answer what was written.
When one is feeling the most broken, perhaps this is the most "awake" one can ever be.
I want to be aware of everything God is doing, all the wonderful and incredible things he does everyday. I don't want to be walking blindly through all the amazing changes he makes every moment. I want to feel it, hear it, taste it, see it. And I don't want to just go through all the motions and emotions of living the life of a Christian...I want to actually believe it and I want all of it. I wan others to see it too...to see me living it! I don't want to get stuck in the same routine, I want to get of my comfort zone and experience all the new things God has to offer...I wanna wake up!