Rilkean Heart (Acoustic Version) lyrics

Rilkean heart, I looked for you to give me
Transcendent experiences
To transport me out of self and aloneness
Sent alienation

Into a sense of oneness and connection, ecstatic and magical
I became a junkie for it
I come looking for the next high
And I'm sorry, I've been putting the search on the wrong place
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I understand that you're confused
Feeling overwhelmed
Well, that's a feeling state from then
The reality

But becoming truly self-reliant
And become connected with something beyond me
That is where I have to go
I'm so sorry I've been putting the search on the wrong place

You're lost and don't know what to do
But that's not all of you
[Incomprehensible] reality today
And then is all okay