My Frustration lyrics

Where was i when god had shown
How to make a happy home
Lie in bed and sleep don't come
Have some peace then give me some
And i know the reason why you hold me down
I won't let this fear of loss make me drown
In my bed i lie alone
Scrape together bone to bone
And i can't seem to seem to find my way
I can't seem to find the break of day
I'll stay just a step away
Where was i when god had shown
How to make a happy home
And i have become my worst enemy
I will survive this instability
In my bed i lie alone
Scrape together bone to bone
Again i have become my worst enemy
I will survive this instability
I need to breathe the breath of life
You constantly drain my life
Why can't you see the breath in me
I constantly need your need
My butterfy don't fly away
If i could just take this simple breath of life from me
You couldn't take it motherfucker eternity
If i could take this breath of life and come inside of me
You wouldn't take it, i need to breathe
As i creep the monkey's back
Now she's gone and oh he's back
And i know the reason why you hold me down
I won't let this fear of loss make me drown
I will stay, i'll stay
I will stay, i'll stay