Shudder lyrics

I never was the guy
you never had that look of love for me in your eye
but still i bled for you

did you know
that every single drop was true?
i swear by god
he created me for you

the smile you gave another
it still can make me shudder

the doctors make me breathe
but they don't have your phone number hidden up their sleeve

so once a day
i ask them please to cut the cord
yeah, i'm sick
i'm sick of falling on this sword

the kiss you gave another
still can make me shudder

i lie in bed
i'm sleeping off a case of beer
you don't care
that i'm lying here

the vow you made another
it always makes me shudder