It begins with a dark glowing ember
Something black burning it's way out of me
Searing the flesh
Pain is the only thing I feel
Scars all I see
Oh no, the fire's burning my insides again
What can I do to silence my desire tonight?
Flames consuming reason
Leaving only ashes left
You will catch me regretting my decision
I can't keep telling myself what I want to hear
I can't just close my eyes
[Chorus]
I know that
It's killing me
And it's poisoning the best in me
What I see I don't want to believe
So let me tell you more
About the lies I lead
That is how I feel, so douse the flames in gasoline
Broken teeth replace the blackout memories in my head
Wreckage from the past haunts me, shakes me to the bone
I know it's over but I can't go home tonight
But after this I feel as empty as the night before
Feel the pain and yet I'm still begging for more
Masochistic nihilistic urging backward thought
My life's a mess and I can't find a way to fix it
I can't keep telling myself what I want to hear
I can't just close my eyes
[Chorus]
Calling calling out
The darkest reaches of my soul are riddled with self doubt
Crawling crawling out
My will to fight will more than suffice when others would lay down.