Testify lyrics

I've been cheating myself for too long.
Living as if i was going nowhere,
And I know it's wrong,
I've been fighting myself for too long,
I try, really try to keep my head up high,
And I know it's wrong,
And I should really know better,
But it's been so long;
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I know how I feel,
But I'm afraid to show it,
Inside it's so real,
But no one else would know it,
The whole truth and no lies,
Cutting deeper, I can hear my soul cry,
Come on Testify, Come on Testify

I've been lying to myself for too long,
Silence.... was my only comfort

And I know it's wrong,
But I can't change the weather,
It's been too long;

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To the friends that I've lost on the way,
To the friends I've been pushing away,
You could say that I've made it,
But I'm Jaded
And inside I'm falling;

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I've been fighting,
Myself for too long,
And Ive been hating,
Myself for too long.