Now And Then lyrics

You see it was drawn easy, my services for a rewarding fee.
Never thinking then of the hundreds i've hurt.
Their morals and family so deserted, you see,
Back then my mind was conned, caught in a pipe dream.
Understand my path set forth from a struggling background.
Mom always worked her hardest maintaining her four hounds.
Scared and afraid that my own child's future was at stake
Quickly reacting was where i made my biggest mistake.
Filled with dillusions i fell,
I fell deep in my grave carried by deceits devouring waves.
I can still remember her nights in tears of rage
Never giving up even with her life in a ruthless maze.
Took a harsh lesson for me to understand life.
What once was taken granted stabbed with a knife.
I've towed along loved ones throughout my experiences,
Placed them in torturous wars when it all was needless.
Now and then i failed to think deep clear inside.
Now and then i rather maintain a modest existence.
Now and then never again will i barter my freedom.