If Not For Heaven lyrics

Hello to the girl I loved
I wish to see you again
To caress your smile disbelief
Entangled hands in red hair

I guess that there's no sense in dreaming
To fear upon your bed and wait
I guess that there's no sense in living
This fear inside me braves on
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Now before I wander
Into the storm
I'd breathe your name
And fall again
And pray to you once more
But you would push me in
Into the rain
And close the door
I fell before
To embrace the eyes of him
But I must move on
Into the end
Sweet empty hands of embered rain
To never fill upon me again
I never wanted this
I never wanted this
I never wanted any more of this

Hello to the girl I lost
I wanted to see you again
Hello in the ground I fill
To reach for heaven
You were the best friend I had
If not for heaven
If not for her
If not forever

I wish I could hold onto
Things that she was
To feel again and fear the same as you
Things that she was
But never would I feel
And all that she would say is
Not to win, not to blame
Not to live, not to save me
From this song I never wanted to sing